Sunday, April 6, 2014

Dobby is a Free Elf

Okay, so…
They announced during a meeting that I would be training for a new (harder) position, 
but never confirmed it with me first. 
In fact, we've spoken about this before
and I said no to changing jobs
(a bold move, I'm aware, but I really don't want this position). 
Apparently, my desires are no longer valid. 
They just decided to move me
and didn't say anything about a pay raise or whatnot.
Also, a coworker accidentally laughed when I told her how much they pay me. 
Also, six people quit or were fired last week.  
Also, I would be leaving soon anyway
because I'm moving home before law school.
Also, I've been trying to quit for months now.
Also, this job is the worst.  
So I'm out.

Being completely unable to make decisions by myself,
this has had me absolutely stressed.
I wrote this post
and then called my mom for the 5th time today (literally)
to ask if we were completely sure. 
She didn't answer (do you think she's getting annoyed?), 
so I'm making a unilateral decision, 
which is making my eye twitch and my stomach cramp. 

But I am relieved. 
How relieved, you ask?
This relieved:

I could go on, but I think you get it.

And I'm in a much better headspace than I was for the last period of unemployment. 
This one ends in law school and a path to money & security. 
Last time, there was no path. 
Only a scary forest of hopelessness and job applications
ending with the cliffs of despair. 

So while I didn't make it to the end of Lent, as was my intention, 
I survived 10 months. 
Is there a support group I can join?

1 comment:

  1. Okay, you told me about the time your co-workers were comparing the way their cats meowed. That, alone, was grounds to quit.